This morning all I felt was foggy & lethargic. I didn’t want to see anyone or do anything & I just wanted to sleep.
But, I had counselling. What I thought might be my last session with her.
We did configurations- that is seeing what qualities you have in each role of your life- for me it’s: daughter, sister, niece, nurse & friend. We also did partner. We talked about hot spots & managing anger & frustration.
How the only person I have control over is myself. How I am the only one who can change my situation. Who can learn to live to with my illness and work towards being happy.
I don’t know how she does it but I always leave feeling better. 50 short minutes, usually tears & I still leave feeling lighter than I went in.
I believe she’s under pressure to end my sessions yet I think we both know that would not be good for me at present with so much change & stress present in my life so I have another session with her.
I go into each one wondering if it’s my last. The time will come but for today the fog has lifted & I do feel lighter
At the beginning of the year I thought counselling couldn’t help me. Now all I can say is please please try it if you suffer any form of mental ill health.
Having a safe space to talk has done wonders for me.
I’ve learnt to trust a complete stranger with the inside of my mind & I’m better for it!!! 💚❤️💚